'Then came cancer - I was terrified.' Life was about to get very difficult for Connie Dever. Her soul echoed her body's turbulence. Everything felt so desperately out of control. 'Fears seized me and sometimes evil felt palpably close. At times I couldn't even open my Bible - only hold it. I was at the end of myself. 'God, hold on to me I can't do anything'' And hold on to her, He did.